Fasted today. Zero food!

Trying to fast tomorrow too... let's see how it goes!

The Reason

He doesn't love me because I am fat. 
Because I am hideous. 
Because I am fat. 


But that is going to change!

I gain instead of lose. 
I am a train wreck!

I binged.

i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. i am horrible. i am a monster. i am fat. i look ugly. i am hideous. i am nasty. i hate myself. 

I can't believe this!

So... I found out that tea actually has calories in it. Not many, like from 2-5, but still. I feel completely misled! Guess yesterday wasn't a zero cal day after all! Neither will today be, since I've already drunk tea. Damn it!

From tomorrow on, I'm

only drinking water!

DAY 3

A little morning hunger, but I'm over it already. Unfortunately if I want to eat somthing I have to wait for dinner, when I have to sit with my family around the table! 

Goal: fast or 100 cal max (in vegetables, fruit and such!)

Success!

Day 1: 50 cal

Day 2: fasting

Tomorrow I am thinking about intaking between 50-100 cal, but I'll fast if I don't feel hungry. Drinking a lot of water/tea really is the trick. I've been drinking at least 1 litre of water everyday, sometimes more. It keeps my stomach full, and the urge of picking up something and shoving it in my mouth under control. 

Talk to you girls tomorrow,

KEEP STRONG!!

Lots of love

xx

Mischievous me, teehee!

Awake for 12 hours, and no food in this mouth. Also, arranged things so that my family thinks I am having dinner with my boyfriend, while my boyfriend thinks he is picking me up after a family's dinner! :)) 

If I don't screw things up before bed, today will be one successful fasting day!

THIS CAN SEEM VERY STUPID BUT...

Is it really true that you can GAIN WEIGHT 

by SMELLING FOOD?

(It seems completely unrealistic, I know, but Google is telling me that it is possible! WTF!)

DAY 2

Let's see how it goes. The goal is fasting, but I might have to eat something during dinner again... Fortunately my mom is going away to San Diego for 5 days, from Wednesday to Monday, and no one else cooks in this house. Lets just hope that this means each one of us will be on our own, instead of meaning that my dad will take us to a pizza place everynight!

I am so nervous for my AP Environmental Test tomorrow!

Dinner with family

- Two pieces of grilled squash.
I don't think it got to like, 50 cal, so it's totally fine.

My excuse: already ate with my friend.

Awesome!

So far so good. 

Fasting is going great!