Let me share some THINSPIRATION

Plans plans plans

Okay, so some of you have asked me for how long I am thinking about going without food (aka fasting). My plan is to fast until Easter, which is this Sunday. That would be 4 days of fasting. 

Has anyone here done that in the past? If so, can you please share your experience? How was it, besides the obvious? I am used to muscle pain and feeling cold, but is there something else I should know? 

So far, so good...

It's past dinner time and I haven't eaten anything at all. 

This first day of fasting might very well turn out to be successfull!

I AM SO EXCITED

So, after yesterday's binge (2000 cal+) I thought that today I would be a total monster! Turns out that I only gained a pound. This is such a relief. I am at 129 now. I am going to fast for a couple of days, still. Eating that much yesterday made me feel extremely dizzy today. Food is a poison!!!    

Announcement

I binged tonight. It was bad. So bad that one day of fasting won't solve it. So I am going to fast for some time. Actually I doubt I will be hungry for a while since I ate so much today. I am very disgusted and ashamed of myself, so I won't be coming back here for a couple of days. I plan on coming again on the weekend, hopefully with better news. I am really sorry girls. Really, really sorry.

Negative Calorie Foods = true or false?

Do you believe in such a thing? 

Let me know your feelings!

More food

- 1 Nature Valley Granola Thin, Dark Chocolate = 80 cal

- 5 Eating Right peeled baby-cut carrots = 35 cal

- 1 Slice of reduced fat cheese (Alpine Lace, 25% Reduced Fat Provolone) = 60 cal 

Total meal: 175 cal

Total today: 255 cal

Calories left: 45 cal

No, I am not proud of myself. The amount of calories in this meal isn't bad, but the amount of fat in is (12-14% daily requirement).

I'll never be 100 pounds. Never.

Good Morning Sunshine :)

Today at 3pm I am officially on vacation - Spring Break, finally! I have two major tests today for which I didn't really study since my obsession with losing weight doesn't really leave me time to think about anything else. But you know what? I don't care! All I care about is that Spring Break is coming... time to relax, sleep in and lose enough weight to impress my friends when I go back to school.

Let's try another 300 cal day.

Breakfast: Dannon Fight & Fit Yogurt (Vanilla) = 80 cal.

So far, so good!

According to my calculations...

I had 330 cal today (max):

- 80 from the yogurt in the morning

- 100 from the cookie (please Lord, make it so that it didn't have more than that!)

- 150 from the plums (since I ended up eating a little more)

The goal was 300 though, meaning that I have failed. However, I did work out a little today, so I think I burnt those 30 extra cal. Also, I am pushing all my values up, so it is possible that I actually had less calories than these.

Anyway, tomorrow is Day 4 so I should have 400 cal! Nevertheless, I am thinking about cutting it down to 300 :) 

I wanna be skinny so so bad. 

I need tips

Please tell me what you do when 
you feel you are about to binge. 

I need all the tips I can get!

I am a disgrace

I managed not to eat from 9.15 to 6.15 (9 hours) but I just ate like 5 or 6 Sunsweet dried plums, which I think have around 90 cal. I am a disgrace. I am totally unworthy of all your encouragement. You are all very strong and beautiful young woman, and I am just a fat girl lacking self control.

Optimize your Time, Exercise while at School/College/Work

That is right m'ladies! Why not burn some extra calories and tone up some muscles when we could be doing so? I am not a big exercise fan, nor a very active person, but the truth is that working out really does help to shape our bodies into perfection.

Conviced? Good! Then, here are the three very easy (and very discreet) exercises I have been doing today while sitting in class:

- Hip Flexion: Sit tall with the abs in and lift the left foot off the floor a few inches, knee bent. Hold for 2 seconds, lower and repeat for 16 reps.  Repeat on the other side.
- Leg Extension: Sit tall with the abs in and extend the left leg until it's level with hip, squeezing the quadriceps. Hold for 2 seconds, lower and repeat for 16 reps.  Repeat on the other side.
- Butt Squeezes: Self-explanatory!

When will I stop cheating myself?

Okay so, I had packed 4 pieces of Mariani Sun-Ripened Mixed Fruit, no sugar added (20 cal) to eat during first break at 10am, and 1/2 cup of CVS Gold Emblem Chicken Broth (100 cal) for lunch. Together they would add to the 80 cal I ingested this morning so that by the time I got home at 4pm I'd still have 100 cal left. Now wasn't that a genious meal plan? But of course I had to spoil it all!

During 1st period, a friend of mine offered me a homemade chocolate chip & mint cookie, which I accepted!! Can someone please explain to me why the hell did I do that? Because I cannot understand! It wasn't a big cookie, actually it was kinda small, but still! I have absolutely no idea of how many calories it had, but I am sure it had too many! Why am I such a pig? Why can't I keep my mouth closed? Do I want to stay this weight forever, or worse - gain weight? Do I? Because if I do then I am doing a great job!

...

Okay, lets calm down... There is nothing I can do about it now. However, there is still hope! The cookie couldn't possibly have 220 cal (the amount of cal I had left for today!) so all I have to do is fast for the rest of the day. I'll bin my fruit and the chicken broth, and I'll try to come up with an excuse for skipping dinner. 

Please girls, give me strengh! I really want to successfully complete Day 3!

DAY 3 - Thank you & Breakfast

Have you noticed that there is always some kind of note attached to my breakfast post? Haha :)

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you all for being so wonderful. When I started this journey, only a couple days ago, I was alone. I was strong, but sometimes I lacked motivation for I had no one to cheer for me. Now I have 12 beautiful followers and a couple more girls that comment on my posts all the time. It means the world to me. It is great to know that there is people out there that understand, approve and support my choices. It is great to know that there is people out there who read and care about what I have to say. I'll always be here for every single one of you. You can count on me. ♥

Now for the breakfast. Today is Day 3, meaning I can have 300 cal. My breakfast will be extremely small, yet super delicious! Wanna take a guess? 

- 1 Dannon Lit & Fit Yogurt (Raspberry) = 80 cal

Total Breakfast: 80 cal

Total today: 80 cal

Calories left: 220

I am pretty sure some of you guessed it! Teehee! I've been eating these a lot lately! They are really great and come in many different flavours. Right now I have a stock of Strawberry & Banana, Peach, Vanilla, and Raspberry, but there are many more available. You girls should give them a try! ;)

Day 2 - Snack #2

Okay so I just had like 15 extra calories since I ate:

- 3 pieces of Mariani Sun-Ripened Mixed Fruit (no sugar added).

I think I will do some exercise for like 20 mins before going to bed. It's all my fault for thinking of food! Of course I'd get hungry. Stupid me.

Cravings

You have NO IDEA of how much I feel like Clam Chowder right now. Thank God we don't have it here at home, or I would totally binge! 

Or Brown Sugar Cinnamon Pop-Tarts. Thank God we don't have those either! (I might have to buy a package soon. But each Pop-Tart has 200 cal... I guess I won't be eating anything else for the day! Or maybe I should just wait until I lose my 30 pounds and then eat one. Oh, decisions, decisions! Help me girls!)

A Weightly Decision

I've just decided that I won't weight myself tomorrow or the day after. I'll only do it again on Wednesday morning. I have been losing at least one pound a day, which is great, but I think I am OCDing a little bit too much about it. Plus, if I don't do it for two days straight I might be very positively surprised and get a huge motivation boost!

Who's with me? :)

DAY 2 - Dinner

Okay sooo... I ate quite a lot but all I had was salad. Plus, most the things I ate were negative cals food. 

Lets see:

- Asparagus (Neg. Cals)

- Lettuce (Neg. Cals)

- Red Leaf Lettuce (Not sure if it's Neg. Cals but seriously how many calories can it possibly have??)

- Onions (Neg. Cals)

- Grapefruit (very little, like one bite, and it is too Neg. Cals)

- One grilled mushroom (not sure of how many cals it has, but then again it can't have that many!)

I don't think I ate anything else. I had to pick things very carefully because there were avocados in the salad and those are very very high cal. I am sure I got some little pieces of them in my lettuce leaves though, but I am trying not to think too much about it. Ugh!

Anyway, I had 220 cals left and I am pretty sure I didn't use them all. However, I decided that I won't eat anything else today. It's like a punishment for eating things without being sure of their caloric value!

I guess this means that I have successfully completed ABC Diet's Day 2! YAY!

Me

Yes, it's a ridiculous picture, I know. I just took it. I thought some of you might like to see the face of who's writing this blog. I won't be posting pictures of myself every so often. At least not until I become a thinspiration (haha, it was a joke! I wish!)

Thank you for all your support <3

I truely believe that together we can do it!

Uh-Oh

We have guests for dinner. Let me see if I can get away with only eating salad... I was trying to keep under 400 cal today since I haven't exercised at all. My energy level is really down so I've spent most my day in bed and doing homework (speaking of which, I still haven't finished!). I'll let you know what happens...